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John Wesley
A SCHEME OF SELF-EXAMINATION USED BY THE FIRST METHODISTS IN OXFORD.
Sunday.—Love of God and Simplicity: Means of which are
Prayer and Meditation.
1. Have I been simple and recollected in everything I
said or did? Have I (I) been simple in everything, that
is, looked upon God, my Good, my Pattern, my one Desire,
my Disposer, Parent of Good; acted wholly for Him; bounded
my views with the present action or hour? (2) Recollected?
that is, has this simple v/ew been distinct and uninterrupted?
Have I, in order to keep it so, used the signs agreed
upon With my friends, wherever I was? Have I done anything
without a previous perception of its being the will of
God? Or without a perception of its being an exercise
or a means of the virtue of the day? Have I said anything
without it?
2. Have I prayed with fervour? at going
in and out of church? in the church? morning and evening
in private? Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, with my friends,
at rising? before lying down? on Saturday noon? all the
time I am engaged in exterior work in private? before
I go into the place of public or private prayer, for help
therein? Have I, wherever I was, gone to church morning
and evening, unless for necessary mercy? and spent from
one hour to three in private? Have I, in private prayer,
frequently stopped short and observed what fervour? Have
I repeated it over and over, till I adverted to every
word? Have I at the beginning of every prayer or paragraph
owned I cannot pray? Have I paused before I concluded
in His name, and adverted to my Saviour now interceding
for me at the right hand of God, and offering up these
prayers?
3. Have I duly used ejaculations? that
is, have I every hour Prayed for humility, faith, hope,
love, and the particular virtue of the day? Considered
with whom I was the last hour, what I did, and how? with
regard to recollection, love of man, humility, self-denial,
resignation, thankfulness? considered the next hour in
the same respects, offered up all I do to my Redeemer,
begged his assistance in every particular, and commended
my soul to His keeping? Have I done this deliberately,
not in haste, seriously, not doing anything else the while,
and fervently as I could?
4. Have I duly prayed for the virtue
of the day? that is, have I prayed for it at going out
and coming in? deliberately, seriously, fervently?
5. Have I used a Collect at nine, twelve,
and three? and grace before and after eating? aloud at
my own room? deliberately, seriously, fervently?
6. Have I duly meditated? every day,
unless for necessary mercy, (1) From six, etc., to prayers?
(2) From four to five? What was particular in the providence
of this day? How ought the virtue of the day to have been
exerted upon it? How did it fall short? (Here faults.)
(3) On Sunday, from six to seven, with Kempis? from three
to four on redemption, or God's attributes? Wednesday
and Friday, from twelve to one, on the Passion? after
ending a book, on what I had marked in it?
Monday.—Love of Man.
1.Have I been zealous to do, and active in doing, good?
that is,
(1) Have I embraced every probable opportunity of
doing good, and preventing, removing, or lessening
evil?
(2) Have I pursued it with my might?
(3) Have I thought any thing too
dear to part with, to serve my neighbour?
(4) Have I spent an hour at least
every day in speaking to some one or other?
(5) Have I given any one up till
he expressly renounced me?
(6) Have I, before I spoke to any,
learned, as far as I could, his temper, way of thinking,
past life, and peculiar hindrance internal and external?
fixed the point to be aimed at? then the means to
it?
(7) Have I in speaking proposed the
motives, then the difficulties, then balanced them,
then exhorted him to consider both calmly and deeply,'
and to pray earnestly for help?
(8) Have I in speaking to a stranger
explained what religion is not? (not negative, not
external) and what it is? (a recovery of the image
of God) searched at what' Step in it he Stops, and
what makes him stop there? exhorted and directed him?
(9) Have I persuaded all I could
to attend public prayers, sermons and sacraments,
and, in general, to obey the laws of the Church Catholic,
the Church of England, the State, the University and
their respective colleges?
(10) Have I, when taxed with any
act of disobedience avowed it, and turned the attack
with sweetness and firing.
(11) Have I disputed upon any practical
point, unless it was to be practised just then?
(12) Have I, in disputing,
(13) Have I after every visit asked him who went
with me, 'Did I say anything wrong?'
(14) Have I, when any one asked advice,
directed and exhorted him with all my power?
2. Have I rejoiced with and for my neighbour in virtue
or pleasure? grieved with him in pain, for him in sin?
3. Have I received his infirmities with
pity, not anger?
4. Have I thought or spoke unkindly of
or to him? Have I revealed any evil of any one, unless
it was necessary to some particular good I had in view
? Have I then done it with all the tenderness of phrase
and manner consistent with that end? Have I anyway appeared
to approve them that did otherwise?
5. Has goodwill been, and appeared to
be, the spring of all my actions towards others?
6. Have I duly used intercession?
(1) Before,
(2) After, speaking to any ?
(3) For my friends on Sunday?
(4) For my pupils on Monday?
(5) For those; who have particularly
desired it, on Wednesday and Friday ?
(6) For the family in which I am,
every day?
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